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Smilin4Gzus
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Birthday: 4/21/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: dancing, singing, acting, reading, and mission trips...I luv meeting new people, hearing testimonies about what God's doin in people's lives, and love sharing what he's doin in my life. He rocks!
Expertise: going to school for Social Work
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  Cheery4Christ
Member Since:
2/4/2005
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| Wow!!
A few months w/out posting and look at all steph does lol!!! Isn't she great! hehe...changed the pic n everything....i really will post soon though...hopefully...lol | | |
| Wow! This semester is sooo crazy! I'm loving it though.God's doing sooo much that I don't have time to elaborate right now. I just thought I'ld post something b/c I havn't posted in a while so, yeah, I'll see you later!
Maggie Moo!
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| sorry about that guys! I guess she got excited or something....wow...10 posts....crazy. Well, have a great Christmas!
~*~Steph
P.S. I only did it b/c we all know that the next time she'll post again is like in 6 months or more. lol... | | |
| Hey guys!!!
I know...this is really scary!! I'm actually posting!! It's terrible...I come and read everyone else's stuff every now and then but never have time to post myself. But i promise, if you go read my written journal at home, i have like 50 pages of written stuff from this semester....There's just somethin about actually writin in a journal book that's more fun than doin it on here. But neways, i know i should keep others updated and share what God's been doin.
So this semester has been COMPLETELY different for me! I've come to the conclusion that I think i belong in the dorms. Don't get me wrong...I luv livin with Sarah Blake to death...we couldn't be any more compatible as housemates. But i just miss so much to death....bein around people on campus...i miss socializing in the cafeteria, always meeting new people in the dorms....and MOST OF ALL, always havin opportunities in the dorms. I know they've changed alot...but i just know that's part of the biggest reasons I'm at NSU. God's givin me the gift and passion for always meetin new people and bein friendly...it just feels like in my house...that gift and passion is suppressed. But neways, enough about that. I'm prayin about exactly where GOD wants me to live next yr.
Besides all that...I still praise God for still always providin opportunities in every situation. This semester, one of the biggest things was being blessed by Sarah's family and him allowing me to bless her family. Also, i just counseled alot of friends from home on the phone.
Above all though, God really grew me in some areas. First of all, i was really challenged in my faith this semester for some reason. Just bein more and more educated in college and then not spendin the extra extra time prayin about answers for questions i had, really began to place doubt in some areas of my life. And i hated it soooo much to death. I also know part of it was not balancing my priorities. I spent alot more time studyin than usual and not as much time havin fun for myself...or hangin w/ other people. And when u don't hang w/ others as much, u begin to become more self absorbed in ur own problems. And I think that's kinda what happened. After fasting and praying big time for a week is when God began to show me all this. I realized how much i'd changed. I wasn't as people-oriented. I also had stopped trusting God w/ my time as much...always worried about not wasting time....thinkin about that many times while i was talking(tryin to listen) and hangin out w/ friends. And that's not good. My number one priority wasn't others anymore. I think i missed alot of opportunities that way.
So now, i'm really prayin that God helps me change some things next semester. First of all i've got to learn balance. I can't have majority schoolwork, majority fun and social life, or majority ministry (as in at a place-like the Foundation) time. I need a balance of all those things. This is helpful advice to everyone readin this.
One of the most exciting things God has done this semester in my life is help me in the guy area...lol. I prayed at the beginning of this semester he would help me get to know alot of awesome Christian guys really well as close friends this semester...so i can learn how to love them as brother's in Christ more easily...becuz i just felt somewhat immature in this area...likin them too easily becuz i'm not used to havin guys like that around...especially ones that are interested in me. And God definately answered that prayer.
Above all, he's been teachin me about not settling in choosing a mate. This semester, i got really close to 2 of my guy friends and actually started to like them both at one time. But i never had a peace about allowing those feelings to increase becuz i knew they weren't what God had for me & that this was not the time for nething like that neways. But i had a really hard time not allowing those feelings to increase. Finally, after a confusing day i spent w/ both of them 1 at a time...i realized the problem. How on earth do u not fall for people who care for u sooo much, who would really lay down their lives for u in a second?
I realized that's what was making me like these guys so much. But becuz there was two of them...i realized apparently there's not gonna be only one guy in ur life that cares about u that way...There could possible be many more in the future....So apparently that's not the only important quality in a mate. Compatible personality traits that ur attracted to and a higher walk w/ God than urs that u look up to is just as important. See, i have an ideal guy in my head that i know God has planned for me. But soo many times, we try and fit other guys into that place. If he doesn't have every quality we desire, we try to forget about it or talk ourselves out of it. (Now, God can change our thoughts and desires over time and place us w/ someone completely different than we imagined) But, i don't think God gave us the certain desires we have in a mate for no reason. If he gave us those certain desires, i believe he wants us to see those fulfilled. For those of you waiting for the right one, why wait ur whole life for someone who has only some of the qualities u desire? Don't settle...don't loose hope...God gave u the certain desire u have for a reason ...and that's becuz he has that certain man out there for u and wants u to be able to identify him when he comes ur way.
So hopefully, this is an encouragement to someone readin this. I know, it's hard to go thru all this...it's hard to wait and keep hope that that perfect someone is out there. But just know God is w/ u all along the way. He knows everything ur goin thru...he knows ur passions...he knows ur desires. Once again just remember, "Seek first the kingdom of God and all these things will be added to you." and "Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give u the desires of your heart!" Most of all, remember God is the fulfiller of ur every need. We're in sin if we're not content in our lives, becuz God is to be our source of satisfaction. And he is the only one that can fully do that. Let him be what u long for in life right now...pray every time u long for a mate, intimacy, or romance...that God would just increase ur longin for him in the place of all that. You will find a love like no other that way!!
Neways, i guess i could go on forever about that! I luv all u guys!! And hope u all have an awesome Christmas!!!
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| So I'm watching myself on the other computer typing up xanga and updating....wait thats not me! Thats Steph! SSSttttteeeepppphhhh!!!!! Thats my xanga!
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